Thoughts in writing

How i just  sit at seaside after sunset just to sight the seashells, palm trees, sandy land, i feel the breeze blow so slowly , me taking a very deep breath and my sprit man trying to be lifted once more....  While i feel the sound of the oceans keeps speaking to me passing a message of peace and Joy...  Am broken inside and this just makes me speak out my thoughts the reasonable ones ,the stupid ones even the ones i never thought of without anyone asking me if i was normal or okay... I don't know but i feel this life is more spritual than i thought i could feel nature talk to me which made me cry out so loud still at the seaside....  But hey i tried moving closer to the water side to hear clearly if i was actually not dreaming not for the voice to keep fading as i move closer and its keep on saying peace like a river... I have never felt this form of joy before i never wanted that voice to leave because it was more so comforting... I have never felt so h...

Back then during sunday schools when i was still little, we were told a story about Adam and eve actually the point i loved most was about we as human having our very own half and i can remember my sunday teacher staring at me and saying you make up the miss ribs of your Adam and i in my mind  am like what is she saying so i decided to check the Holy book then i understood that every female actually as to fill in the missing rib of a male So then i began to pray for my Adam for his wellness, happiness and for me to meet im soon lol..... Hmmmm it was very stupid then but i just wanted to be sure he was fine because since that day i started becoming so conscious of meeting him soon but as i grew as a youth i began to get disappointed because i was expecting Mr adam so soon but after a while i believed that he might not be anywhere around so i decided to just leave on with my life, make money and love those that love me.. But due to the fact that i had given up on Mr adam i never foun...

 It could be hard when we actually feel so insecure about certain things but we are placed as being weird, but i study to have seen that i was made out of emotions right from birth just because i was in a warm and comfort zone in my mothers womb as a foetus developing to a baby.....i cried out because i could feel the harshness when i was out of there through delivery i wasnt called weird or too insecure... I was expecting to because mindset is stated that i am meant to so when i cry, when i gey jealous, when i feel lonely, when i get so emotional about certain its not because am just a different being because its my nature but you have the grace not to be so insecure and i have the grace to be very insecure BUT still i know i have times when i get so excited and so jovial times like that i always pray for, when worries and pain come the two things that could listen to my deepest pain languages could be my pillow and my shadow but funny how they're not human LOL.,.... But here i am...